Feeling: strangely free?
Saturday, March 16th
This had been the time I was most apprehensive about: no school to distract me; no way of knowing what others were up to. However, this didn’t really get to me as much as I thought it would. Instead, what I noticed was a lot of time I needed to fill up. What was a Saturday morning for, other than mindlessly scrolling through feeds until a sudden motivation to get up overcame me? Today was definitely a challenge for me, since all I wanted to do was to sit in my bed and use apps to procrastinate starting my day, but instead of using my phone for this, I used a book. It sounds wild- reading a book? On purpose? But somehow, I did it and *actually* enjoyed it.
Don’t get me wrong though- I definitely struggled with this. Do you know how much effort it takes to not die of boredom when you don’t have plans until a Saturday night? Also, it was really strange to not have any clue as to what other people are doing, since I usually check Instagram first thing in the morning.
Overall, I feel pretty good. I don’t feel as tied down by my screen, but I’ve noticed how bad my attention span is when I try to read a book. Every few pages, I would instinctively grab my phone to check it. Not good, but at least I’m on my way to at least attempting to fix my social media problem.